Update...

So, for now they have ruled out carpal tunnel. I had about 5 x-rays & they took a bunch of blood from me. So, MAYBE we can see what is wrong in my hand. As I type this update it is hurting me. But I want to keep you all informed.

Thursday was the most painful day in my life. I just wanted to die... it didn't matter what I did the pain was sooo intense. Shooting up & down my arm & the swelling my wrist was all one size. I am now wondering "what the heck did I do" YES I'm 50 & I have always worked with my hands so this could be old age creeping up on me?? I am fine with that BUT no one should ever be in that much pain!

My poor Len.... all he could do was to watch me cry & hold me.... Have you ever sat & watch some cry from pain?? You can't do a thing for them. You just feel helpless. I remember watching Jake this year when he broke his arm. I just prayed to God please stop his pain & give it to me... I didn't want Jake to feel like this... Not fair for a boy to suffer like that.

They have me on a very strong drug now.... Not sure if this is good or bad. The long term effects are bad. SO, what does someone do?? Take the pills to feel better but have problems later on from it OR be in so much pain that you can't see straight?? I am trying real hard to keep my "It's all Good" attitude....

I am asking everyone to keep me in your prays. If not for me but for Len. I know he would never say a thing or ask for your help... But after watching him last night I know he is lost on what to do. I really don't know how to let go & stop everything. The doc is asking me to give up on all I do. Cut back on all my time on the computer.. scrapbooking.. driving.. cooking.. cleaning.. anything that I do with my hands. I need to just let my right wrist rest. Something that I'm having a hard time doing. I know in my mind & heart this is the right thing to do... But it's who I am... A person who makes scrapbooks for a friend who is gone & I wanted him to have something to remember all that he left behind... a wife who LOVES to cook & clean for her hubby.. AND a friend that if you called I will & would drop everything for you and come running.
So please keep me in your prays....

I love you all.... :)