So I went back to my roots.
COUNTRY MUSIC!
You might laugh, but whenever I feel lost and just down there is something about country music the makes me happy and lifts up my soul. I find a peaceful place when I listen to it and things seem to be so much clearer.
Well the weekend with me niece was a little better. The boy did let her down and I feel for her. I knew it was going to happen. So much time as past for them two. There are friends and I feel that is a much better place for him. He has some much going on in his life. One thing I learned is you have to let them figure it out. I hate to sit on the side lines and see someone I love get hurt. Hard when you can see the writing on the wall but when you tell a teenager what you see they think you are crazy.
We didn't go to Seattle :( Millie got sick and we just watch movies and things. Sunday was the Superbowl and we had a few friends over. Nothing is better then good food and good friends!!!
I don't have any pictures to share with you on my visit with Millie. :( Sad but true.
Well I sit here at work blogging to you all &lunch is over and I need to get back.
I'm rocking out to Taylor Swift on Pandora just digging my music choice today!
peace out
leelee
<3
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Friday, February 1, 2013
Life is just not interresting...
but it is frustrating at times.
I keep telling myself you need to post a blog so the few that read it knows what is going on. Then my mind flips the invisible coin in my head and says nahhh why if I'm not interested in my own life why would anyone else really want to read my post.
Now I have to tell you all that I had one hell of a day yesterday, from waking up and reading a text from a friend telling me unhappy news to having a intense discussion most of the day with my niece on a boy with both know and getting so frustrated cause I feel she is battling a hope that is just not there. Then last night I just did a few hours of battling of my mind to heart to soul and came up with a look at it this way...
Sometimes making your own happiness is to just let go of the ones you love.
So here is sit I'm half dress for work and I need to move on. All I wanted this trip is for her to be here with me. She is the only family ever to come to my home in Wa. I didn't get to do the homecoming I had plan cause the boy picked her up. Why didn't I... good question!
We had planned to then to but the day before she called and told me this boy want to come and see her but how she said it was he wanted to get her. I was so sad, upset and well lack of a better word pissed. I haven't seen her for 3 years. I get it they "have feeling for each other"
We talked it over and to tell you the truth I just don't care anymore.
So folks, what do you do??
For me...I just want to let you know 3 things...
"The ones who you care the most for your life are the ones you will hurt the most."
Life isn't fair cause if it was we all would be happier and living the high life in sunshine and gold!!!
peace out
leelee
<3
I keep telling myself you need to post a blog so the few that read it knows what is going on. Then my mind flips the invisible coin in my head and says nahhh why if I'm not interested in my own life why would anyone else really want to read my post.
Now I have to tell you all that I had one hell of a day yesterday, from waking up and reading a text from a friend telling me unhappy news to having a intense discussion most of the day with my niece on a boy with both know and getting so frustrated cause I feel she is battling a hope that is just not there. Then last night I just did a few hours of battling of my mind to heart to soul and came up with a look at it this way...
- not my life
- not my problem
- and last all i should be doing is listening and that's all clearly she has her mind up and this is who she is and anything I had said and will say is always going to have one reply of this... "you are not giving him a chance and I don't have faith in him"
Sometimes making your own happiness is to just let go of the ones you love.
So here is sit I'm half dress for work and I need to move on. All I wanted this trip is for her to be here with me. She is the only family ever to come to my home in Wa. I didn't get to do the homecoming I had plan cause the boy picked her up. Why didn't I... good question!
We had planned to then to but the day before she called and told me this boy want to come and see her but how she said it was he wanted to get her. I was so sad, upset and well lack of a better word pissed. I haven't seen her for 3 years. I get it they "have feeling for each other"
We talked it over and to tell you the truth I just don't care anymore.
So folks, what do you do??
For me...I just want to let you know 3 things...
- I am alive.
- A broken heart will always mead.
- And family will hurt you the most and in the end you will still love them. Even on a shit day like yesterday.
"The ones who you care the most for your life are the ones you will hurt the most."
Life isn't fair cause if it was we all would be happier and living the high life in sunshine and gold!!!
peace out
leelee
<3
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Wish List Neon Trees (lyrics)
In honor of the first day of Dec how about a little Christmas music to gets us more in the mood for the holidays. I'm finishing decking the halls and our tee is going up today... So here is "Neon Trees" singing Wish List.
peace out
leelee
Friday, November 30, 2012
Kelly Clarkson - Catch My Breath (Official Lyric Video)
Amazing song and it's speaks to my heart. I've spent most of my life running from my true feeling. But after what I've been though this past 3 years no more.
peace out
leelee
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Sunday, September 23, 2012
weekend wrap up
To say the least I didn't get a lot done this weekend.
Winston on sat night got very sick. I woke up to Len saying "whats wrong" to the dog. All i saw was this little 4 pound dog walking across our bed and looking and acting like he had a seizure. He crawled up to my face/shoulder and was shaking and then he wanted to walk around. he looked drunk.
to took him to the door to see if he needed to go outside... Then he puked. poor thing. he looked at me like he was just about to die.
I picked him up and went back in the house. he was shaking again.
then he wanted to be held. then all of a sudden he got sick again. At this point Len is on line looking up signs of a seizure. Me holding my boy and hoping its nothing more the him eating something that didn't agree with him. Praying inside that's all it is.
Len takes Winston on walks at least 5 times a week. So maybe that's all it is. Grass.. maybe when they walked he ate grass....
So at this point it 1 in the morning and Winston is still in my arms snuggling tight in his favorite blanket. Me in bed sitting up and Len sitting next to me. I put the TV on know there is no way in hell i would be sleeping any time soon. Len fell asleep. Winston finally fell asleep... me sitting up looking at both of them. thinking to myself and hoping that nothing more was going to happen. Knowing that if we lost Winston Len would be sick over it. Yes, I would be too but this little 4 pound wonder has brought so much joy to Len. That I think it would just put he over the edge.
So as I sat awake till 4:30ish in the morning hoping and praying to my Lord to heal this 4 pound wonder. Thinking and wondering how in the hell my life would be like again with out a dog.
:/
I fell asleep and at 8:30 jumped out of bed. not sure why I did. Got in a shower and waited to see if Winston would wake up better and yes he did.
So it must of been just an upset tummy. I will take him to the doc's and have him checked out.
Thank you God...
Sun I didn't get much done I felt hung over from lack of sleep. I went in to town with Jen for a bit then came home watch a movie with Winston on my lap.
Now I'm in my scrap room thinking of my weekend and how this past week was a week of sadness....
Take each day to live it~love it. remember be kind to all those around you. Say thanks to those who do things for you not because they wanted to but because they love you and DON"T ever take a friend for granted they might not be there tomorrow. Far and near keep everyone in your heart, smile when you think of them. out of sight out of mind in my book is a cop out.... say you love me when you feel it. I do... I believe feeling what you feel at the moment, because it my never happen again.
I will not live forever... I do feel my life will be shorter the yours. I am older and with that I want you all to know I love you and I am glad we have each other, I miss you when you are gone and I am happy when we see each other.
I know for me, my heart is a home with rooms. each of you fill it and have a place to live forever in it.
till the day I pass remember you are loved. you are never alone. you own my heart....
peace out
leelee
<3
- shopping... check
- cleaning... check
Winston on sat night got very sick. I woke up to Len saying "whats wrong" to the dog. All i saw was this little 4 pound dog walking across our bed and looking and acting like he had a seizure. He crawled up to my face/shoulder and was shaking and then he wanted to walk around. he looked drunk.
to took him to the door to see if he needed to go outside... Then he puked. poor thing. he looked at me like he was just about to die.
I picked him up and went back in the house. he was shaking again.
then he wanted to be held. then all of a sudden he got sick again. At this point Len is on line looking up signs of a seizure. Me holding my boy and hoping its nothing more the him eating something that didn't agree with him. Praying inside that's all it is.
Len takes Winston on walks at least 5 times a week. So maybe that's all it is. Grass.. maybe when they walked he ate grass....
So at this point it 1 in the morning and Winston is still in my arms snuggling tight in his favorite blanket. Me in bed sitting up and Len sitting next to me. I put the TV on know there is no way in hell i would be sleeping any time soon. Len fell asleep. Winston finally fell asleep... me sitting up looking at both of them. thinking to myself and hoping that nothing more was going to happen. Knowing that if we lost Winston Len would be sick over it. Yes, I would be too but this little 4 pound wonder has brought so much joy to Len. That I think it would just put he over the edge.
So as I sat awake till 4:30ish in the morning hoping and praying to my Lord to heal this 4 pound wonder. Thinking and wondering how in the hell my life would be like again with out a dog.
:/
I fell asleep and at 8:30 jumped out of bed. not sure why I did. Got in a shower and waited to see if Winston would wake up better and yes he did.
So it must of been just an upset tummy. I will take him to the doc's and have him checked out.
Thank you God...
Sun I didn't get much done I felt hung over from lack of sleep. I went in to town with Jen for a bit then came home watch a movie with Winston on my lap.
Now I'm in my scrap room thinking of my weekend and how this past week was a week of sadness....
- a friend is sick and the docs are not sure what direction they are going to take
- had a client and friend pass away
- talking things over with a friend on their wishes if something were to happen to them in the future
- seeing one of my best friends kids sick in the hospital
- Real tears are not those that fall from your eyes & cover your face, but those that fall from your heart & cover your soul.
Take each day to live it~love it. remember be kind to all those around you. Say thanks to those who do things for you not because they wanted to but because they love you and DON"T ever take a friend for granted they might not be there tomorrow. Far and near keep everyone in your heart, smile when you think of them. out of sight out of mind in my book is a cop out.... say you love me when you feel it. I do... I believe feeling what you feel at the moment, because it my never happen again.
I will not live forever... I do feel my life will be shorter the yours. I am older and with that I want you all to know I love you and I am glad we have each other, I miss you when you are gone and I am happy when we see each other.
I know for me, my heart is a home with rooms. each of you fill it and have a place to live forever in it.
till the day I pass remember you are loved. you are never alone. you own my heart....
peace out
leelee
<3
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Fall...
This is my favorite time of the year.
Today's list of things to do.
well happy sat to you all.
peace out
leelee
<3
- leaves changing
- PUMPKINS
- candy
- halloween
- baking
- looking forward to the winter
- crisp morning walks
- or just being lazy snuggled on the couch with a book or movie.
Today's list of things to do.
- food shopping
- cooking
- some cleaning
- I want to see a movie (love free movie tickets with my rewards)
- scrap
- decorate (dress) the house & porch in fall/halloween
well happy sat to you all.
peace out
leelee
<3
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