Jacob... my Jake.. my LJ.
Wow you just make me smile and warm my heart.
This pasted Wed Jake sat me down to talk to me about him going to middle school... hahaha You need to understand that this will not happen to next year. Which I know there is a big chance I'll not be watching him. :(
I know this going into this year. No one had to tell me or sit me down. It's all part of life as the kids we love grow up and move on. Become independent from us. I know Jake will always need me. We have this bond... A bond I'm not sure I can even explain to you all. But our hearts are tied with this invisible string of love. I have it with a few of the kids in my life and I'm very grateful for this love and friendship with them all.
Sorry squirrel... Back to the story.
As I sat there listening to Jake tell me all about him going to middle school and what is looking forward to and what's going to be different (not scary). Jake will be taking the bus next year every day.
So which leads to the next topic...
Leah, I think I need to start taking the bus to school!
Jake likes to walk & skateboard or have me drop him. Dropping him off is what we do the most.
I kept a straight happy face as I was laughing inside. "Who is this kid??" And when did he grow up so fast. I wonder if Jen had a talk about this with him or was it all him?
It was all him. I talked to Jen the next day on it.
So off to the school he went on the bus that day.. I don't stay there and watch him get on. I haven't done that in a year or so... Jen doesn't do the either.
Next day.... Thursday Jake wakes up we start our morning with small talk and breakfast. Then he opens up again to me...
Leah, you do know what kinda scares me?? No Jake what?? This year we have the talk. You know about sex....
Here's me again straight face and laughing on the inside. So we talked it out. I told him this will not be the only time he will have this in school health class is going to be a on going topic. This is only the start and they are only touching on a few things. I think his big brother is filling his head with things. Matt loves to do that and it drives me nuts.
So off to the bus for day two on it.... He walked down a few house to the stop and I got in my car and on my way home.
So here we are one week later and we are back to me taking him.
Reason.....lets just say a strange morning and Jake got freaked out went to a friends house around the corner to get the bus. I got a call from Jen asking me about the morning. Trust me if I knew I would of stay. Jake's fine... I am sure he'll be wanting to take the bus again. I will be staying till I see him get on. Life we move forward and push though and we become stronger for it.
My follow readers... Jake was creep out by a strange man getting out of his car walking into a house with a gun case. He knew to get out of that area. Go to a safe place. Just like on Saturday he was in the park by his house and there was a "gang" hanging in the park doing things they shouldn't. So him and his friends left. His family has taught him well in his young life and I'm proud of my boy. He called that afternoon and the first thing he said to me was... "why did you let me take the bus??" Me.. in my head was thinking if I could have it my way you would stay 5 (year old) all the time.
I had to share this story.
Reason... my message to all the younger folks in my life...
You all are growing up so fast. Please know how proud I am of all of you. You are waking up each day with new and old challenges to face.
ALWAYS remember I'm here if you need me. Know each day I say a pray for you to be stronger and safe. To face life with all it has to bring to you and when I'm gone that will never change. I will watch over you from heavens view.
You all fill my life completely and I'm very blessed by that. I think whats hard for me is watching from the sidelines. Wanting to be do more and say more. But if you don't ask I can't help....
Below is a song that I sang to Jake all the time as a baby in my arms as I rocked him to sleep. It still holds true to my heart.
To everyone on my life I give this song to you. I decade it to you and know I will promise to be by your side forever & in my heart. For you are what make me be a better person and keep me stronge.
I love you all....
Peace out
leelee <3
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